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This post is beautiful and heartbreaking. I know ...

2009-12-04T02:31:57.728-05:00

This post is beautiful and heartbreaking. I know a little bit of that feeling--I learned that my miscarriage was going to happen the day after Christmas two years ago (though it didn't actually happen till right after New Year's), and I do think I'll always think of my loss more at this time of year. I'm so very sorry for your loss.

Thank you for this post. I myself have felt unable...

2009-12-03T19:26:58.531-05:00

Thank you for this post. I myself have felt unable to write, but this is so similar to how I feel. So uncertain about the holidays, everything is all tied up in this time of year and where we were last year. The rest of the world seems to be getting merrier every minute and I just want to stop time. And then in the next minute I go on, have a laugh, keep moving.

I've been thinking

I think M is right. It is both, happy and sad. Som...

2009-12-03T16:48:57.084-05:00

I think M is right. It is both, happy and sad. Sometimes I can't bear to look at the pictures I have of G. Sometimes I need to see them, just to see her face again. Even if it is only a photograph.

Sometimes the 'if onlys' and 'this time last years' just can't be stoppped.

And now I'm just crying too much to type anymore. Thinking of you and M

Christmas (well all holidays) are so hard. Crushi...

2009-12-03T15:41:33.712-05:00

Christmas (well all holidays) are so hard. Crushingly hard.

Sending hugs...

I wrote a very similar post over at Glow in the Wo...

2009-12-03T14:18:39.347-05:00

I wrote a very similar post over at Glow in the Woods (since I've shut down my blog...) I put up the tree, hung the lights but there is no fanfare, no happiness in my heart. I'll go through the motions but the magic is lost on me...

I don't really know what I want to say here ot...

2009-12-02T19:24:25.849-05:00

I don't really know what I want to say here other than I'm thinking about you and your husband and your precious girls and wishing you strength and peace this week.

I cried reading your post. It is so difficult that...

2009-12-02T13:28:44.496-05:00

I cried reading your post. It is so difficult that time continues to pass by and the girls continue to be gone. And how do you reconcile that? I have no idea.

We are not decorating for Christmas this year. No tree at least. Maybe we'll do something else on a small level. We're saying it's because of the boxer puppy and our certainty that she would eat any tree we buy plus

I wish I could help take some of the pain away, bu...

2009-12-02T10:15:49.508-05:00

I wish I could help take some of the pain away, but I know I can't. *hugs*

Hi again, I just thought of something, this is my ...

2009-12-02T05:15:52.728-05:00

Hi again, I just thought of something, this is my "grieving" song. You might like it too...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GW-YMf0Kmww

Something I have learned about grief is that you h...

2009-12-02T02:17:43.647-05:00

Something I have learned about grief is that you have to go through it, you can't get around it. That means letting those horrific waves of pain wash right over you, sobbing your heart out if you need to. And another very strange thing about grief is that it gets fed to you in tiny little bite size chunks, that's why you suddenly start feeling OK again! Do whatever you need to, avoid

I'm thinking of you and M as well, sending you...

2009-12-02T01:11:17.837-05:00

I'm thinking of you and M as well, sending you wishes of peace and comfort in each other. I wish there was something more I could do or say to help.

I'm sorry. I will be remembering your girls a...

2009-12-01T20:47:28.909-05:00

I'm sorry. I will be remembering your girls along with you and M.

Just sending love and hugs.

2009-12-01T20:26:47.275-05:00

Just sending love and hugs.

I know it doesn't mean much, but, you're n...

2009-12-01T20:16:04.296-05:00

I know it doesn't mean much, but, you're not alone.

As you get closer and closer to the anniversary you will have more of this, more confussion, more okay and not okay, and okay. I think you're right not to fight it, you're right to just go with it, not to fight it.

you don't have to give out gifts or cards or do anything you don't want to do.
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Thinking of you SO much.

2009-12-01T20:03:30.355-05:00

Thinking of you SO much.

Gah, for me it's the cards. The damn cards, w...

2009-12-01T19:09:14.106-05:00

Gah, for me it's the cards. The damn cards, with the "Joy!" and "Peace" and "Merry" and "Happy" and everyone's live children pictured and I just. can't. stand. it. I used to send them out every year, no fail. I haven't sent a card since December '06.

And you know, I think that's ok. You need to get through it, and do

I don't have the right words to say, but want ...

2009-12-01T17:31:23.927-05:00

I don't have the right words to say, but want to give you huge *hugs* I can imagine the pain you are feeling.

It IS different now. It's all different. Let ...

2009-12-01T14:05:56.174-05:00

It IS different now. It's all different.

Let the waves happen.

xxx

It's sad that there are so many who simply do ...

2009-12-01T13:31:44.562-05:00

It's sad that there are so many who simply do not want to do Christmas this year. I'm not at all looking forward to it, for so many reasons.

I identify with your description about how the day shifts right from under you and in the span of a few minutes can shift right back. It happens to me all. the. time. It's crazy making that's for sure.

Here's

i feel your pain on not knowing exactly what to do...

2009-12-01T13:25:44.235-05:00

i feel your pain on not knowing exactly what to do. this is my favorite time of year, but i do not want to put a tree up or decorate this year. i bought an ornament to put on our tree for Cadynce, but that will have to wait until next year because I just cant handle it now.

~~hugs~~ hope it gets better for you

We've been asking that question a lot. How doe...

2009-12-01T13:00:54.980-05:00

We've been asking that question a lot. How does this make you feel--happy or sad? Because in the beginning of this journey, I just did everything that remembered Lucia no matter how painful it was to look at everyday, and now, we seem to be weighing it more and more. Is this salt or salve? Been thinking about you a ton as you approach the girls' day. xo

This is all to say, I am thinking of you. Abiding....

2009-12-01T12:17:11.951-05:00

This is all to say, I am thinking of you. Abiding. And wishing you peace in this season.

My water broke on Christmas morning, 2007. 10am. ...

2009-12-01T12:15:57.835-05:00

My water broke on Christmas morning, 2007. 10am. We were sleeping in, not traveling because even at 19w3d I was still dealing with morning sickness.

I'm Jewish, he is not. One twin had died, the other delivered 10 days later at 21w5d.

I used to think I knew how to do Christmas. It is already aching. He will travel this year. I am okay, but I just cannot go yet.