Comments on The Maybe Baby (Babies): Resignation

This sucks! I can't believe you have to deal w...

2009-06-01T20:51:58.449-05:00

This sucks! I can't believe you have to deal with this. As I sit here in despair and hopelessness, I'd like to say, "don't give up hope- keep holding your dreams." If I were you reading this, I just might respond " shut up."

I'm sorry for what you are going through, but know you are not alone. We're all here for you as you process things in

I am so very sorry you are facing this possibility...

2009-05-29T22:06:25.672-05:00

I am so very sorry you are facing this possibility. My prayers are with you.

I've been stalking for a bit as my brain has turne...

2009-05-26T00:35:19.714-05:00

I've been stalking for a bit as my brain has turned to mush...but I wanted you to know that I continue to keep you and M in my thoughts and prayers.

hey, Hope you are okay. I deleted my blog - but wi...

2009-05-25T15:58:18.917-05:00

hey,
Hope you are okay.
I deleted my blog - but will continue to read along with you (you know where I am if you ever need me).
Take care

I hope your lining has a huge "puffing out" or wha...

2009-05-25T00:40:31.605-05:00

I hope your lining has a huge "puffing out" or whatever linings do...and maybe if this time it doesn't it will next month (or whenever the vast quanities of drugs allow you to re-cycle) I am thinking of you (and your DH and your girls watching on), I hope your RE has some great ideas for getting things going down there. It just isn't fair, but none of it is. Sending good thoughts.

You know about my scarred uterus, correct? My seco...

2009-05-23T23:17:27.661-05:00

You know about my scarred uterus, correct? My second pregnancy FUCKED it up. Badly. I had ~four~ hysteroscopes. In a row. That was a bad year. I started being 70% sealed shut with scar tissue.

Then, for the FET, I was on the daily estrogen. Nothing. So they went to plan B. Put me on femara. Not to grow eggs, but to throw my body into stopping producing estrogen myself. Which fools the

I so understand how hard it is to form the thought...

2009-05-23T20:09:11.255-05:00

I so understand how hard it is to form the thoughts contained here let alone write them down as you did in this post.

And, yes, there's something so beyond surreal about trying to process what you're trying to process while the rest of the world is oblivious to the heartache raging inside you. You're in my thoughts. Wishing you peace and strength...

Oh m. this possibility is heartbreaking. It would ...

2009-05-23T18:34:31.381-05:00

Oh m. this possibility is heartbreaking. It would be so unfair after everything you have already been through.
Thinking about you. This journey is so difficult. I hope that the "more" that your RE can do does the trick. you deserve to get out the other side of this and be able to carry your baby(ies). You just do.
Mo

What crappy news, and on top of all you've been th...

2009-05-23T18:05:52.783-05:00

What crappy news, and on top of all you've been through already. I'm so sorry. I'm keeping my fingers crossed your lining thickens up and gets you where you need to be.

Ugh. I'm hopeful this isn't it for you, but I get ...

2009-05-22T22:08:22.172-05:00

Ugh. I'm hopeful this isn't it for you, but I get at some point just feeling like there's not much more you can take, so maybe this isn't meant to be - I'd done that, I went through that grief that maybe for me it'd never happen. I can't say your story will turn out like mine - in an ideal world it would - but I get where you're at, emotionally. There's only so much you can take of this

I am sorry that you are dealing with all this. It ...

2009-05-22T18:51:34.430-05:00

I am sorry that you are dealing with all this. It more than sucks. You are a beautiful writer. I especially pondered the following: "Sick of the hypocrisy of organic foods and green living while meanwhile super-sizing my hormone levels and forcing my body to deal with all kinds of artificial junk."

I'm so sorry you find yourself in this limbo betwe...

2009-05-22T18:10:57.128-05:00

I'm so sorry you find yourself in this limbo between hope and resignation. What a shitty place to be. The only upside to M. having lept over the fence is that he CAN be your strength...

I'm another one, quietly giving a shit (sounds dre...

2009-05-22T16:49:08.799-05:00

I'm another one, quietly giving a shit (sounds dreadful when put that way) and holding you in my heart often, like yesterday when I was listening to that great song you blogged about a while back. So yeah, just abiding with you.

Like the people who commented above, I also give a...

2009-05-22T16:40:20.516-05:00

Like the people who commented above, I also give a shit. Having gone through something similar to you, I think I have the right to care.

It really pissed me off when after my son died that the whole world didn't just stop spinning - even for a day.

Life will get better. Even if we find it impossible to believe. And it's people like you who have helped me through the

There's nothing to say other than what Angie did a...

2009-05-22T15:57:19.849-05:00

There's nothing to say other than what Angie did and that is that I give a shit in this little corner of the world. I'm just so sorry. Much love.

I'm so sorry you have to deal with all this. Thank...

2009-05-22T15:41:47.288-05:00

I'm so sorry you have to deal with all this. Thanks for sharing it with us though. I'm really hoping for you this is not the end - that there will be a silver lining after all... Thinking of you.

no words. just virtual hugs. and to let you know t...

2009-05-22T15:29:46.021-05:00

no words. just virtual hugs. and to let you know that here's someone else in the world that gives a shit about all that you are that you are going through.

I have no words that will help. Just want you to ...

2009-05-22T13:57:22.164-05:00

I have no words that will help. Just want you to know that I hear you and sit with you while you bear such a load.

After reading the first few lines all I could thin...

2009-05-22T13:27:49.538-05:00

After reading the first few lines all I could think was, "What? No way. It can't be. It's not fair."

I don't know what it's like to be you, but I know what it feels like to be on the other side of a dead baby and wonder if it will ever work again. Different scenarios, I know, but I know how much it tore me up and broke me down. I am hoping for a quicker resolution for you - a

It's not often that I'm at a lack for words. But ...

2009-05-22T13:11:24.904-05:00

It's not often that I'm at a lack for words. But it seems that I am now. And I hate that. And I hate what you've had to write for leaving me at a lack for words. I just want to yell and curse and scream with you! Want to come visit? ;)

Thank goodness for M. And hoping with all my might that your body gets "in phase" and a transfer is in your future.

I am so sorry you are going through this and I am ...

2009-05-22T12:56:56.581-05:00

I am so sorry you are going through this and I am saying an extra prayer for you. ((hugs))

i am so so sorry. my heart breaks just reading th...

2009-05-22T12:34:36.816-05:00

i am so so sorry. my heart breaks just reading this. i hope our comments add a bit more 'get-thru-day' power to those texts. i've been living text to text my self this week while i force myself through workdays. take care!

I wish I could say something profound in this litt...

2009-05-22T10:51:51.458-05:00

I wish I could say something profound in this little box. But we both know I can't.

But I can say this: I give a shit. I give a shit if you are sad, or feeling hopeless, distraught, or overwhelmed, or the opposite of all those emotions, in the same day. I do.

And in real life, I would want to pop over to your house with some crunchy spirulina tamari snacks and herbal tea,

Shit, I don't want you to have to resign yourself ...

2009-05-22T10:39:44.210-05:00

Shit, I don't want you to have to resign yourself to this... I'm hoping for you.

xxx

Being told that you will never ever be pregnant is...

2009-05-22T10:25:45.422-05:00

Being told that you will never ever be pregnant is scarring, and when after lots of estrogen and viagra my lining was 4mm, I was devastated, it is hard to know that you will never ever carry your child, and so I will not sugar coat it. Everyone kept telling me just to take viagra (it did NOTHING to help) and there is no explination for why my lining sucks, just that it does, the end.
I am so