Friday, April 11, 2008

An Apology

Since the inception of this blog over a year ago, every time I post, I ask myself, "Now, if maybe baby stumbled across this dozens of years from now, would he/she be cool with it?" The answer to this question shapes my posts, edits my words and generally keeps me in check.

So why oh why didn't I apply that same question to members of my own family? If (insert the name of any friend or family member here) ever stumbled across this page, would he/she be cool with it?

I think the answer 99% of the time would be yes. Some may disagree with how a situation was portrayed or tsk tsk at my melodrama but I think, for the most part, they would be cool. Yes, this is an anonymous blog and yes, few folks know it's here and yes, it is a space for me to work out sh*t that affects me and sometimes that involves other people, but still. 1% of uncool is too much.

Especially if that 1% draws tears, causes doubts or just plain isn't nice.

And for that, I am sorry. I am so sorry. I am hoping that relationships open and grow because of it, but I am regretful that I couldn't have figured out a better catalyst for that.

D*mn.

5 comments:

Lori said...

I hope your apologee sees the sincerity in your apology.

And that you both grow.

Trace said...

No! A blog is a place for you to go. A nonjudgmental place to vent. Don't apologize. If you want to rage and curse at the world do it. In my mind that is what a blog is for. Oh, and to "meet" people in similar situations who can relate.

chicklet said...

It's tough knowing where to draw the line isn't it? I too want to be able to vent, but admittedly I'm careful with what I say about anything non-IF cuz I don't want it to bite me later...

Kami said...

I worry about that too. Should it be wrong to be honest about how you feel even if you don't know a certain party is reading.

I hope the relationship grows because of it too.

Anonymous said...

Please o please don't stop blogging. :-)

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