Saturday, November 17, 2012

Road Trip!

So many times we (meaning me) turn to the keyboard when we need to process something hard. Something difficult. Something that we can't get our head around. And yeah, my drafts folder is filled right now with those.....

But today, today I just want to share with you the fabulous feelings that I'm feeling right now. Nothing to process. All visceral. All good.

We are on the road. In a rental. With a sun roof.

En route to our baby mama and our baby2B who has gestated for 21 weeks tomorrow.

We'll stop along the way. When and where we feel like it. I bet we're going to have a kick ass meal tonight. Someplace we've never been. We'll figure it out. When we get there. We always do.

Being in a car with M feels like home. Maybe because it was for us for more than a year. But wow! If we had then what we have now.....Semi-reliable data connections. Social media. The twitter! Happy cow! Google maps! If we had then what we have now....

Well, it wouldn't have been the same trip, would it?

But this trip. Man, we are psyched. We'll be driving through some cities we have yet to see. We'll play a ridiculous amount of name that tune with the radio. We'll quiz each other on random things. We'll do what we do. Now, I'd be lying if we said we weren't worried at all. The timing is tough. the girls' birthday is just around the corner. I think we're both conscious of some potential triggers that await us. Some things that might bring back memories of other scans and other days in hospitals and.

And. And. And.

But the road soothes. It does for us, anyway. And this: my conference and all of its madness if ov-ah. We both have the week off and have purposefully not committed to any holiday gatherings. But if we do get back in time, I've got my eyes on a local 5K Turkey Trot and a personal best. After that, there is a vegan roast in my fridge just waiting to be slathered in gravy. There is TV to be watched. There are pj's to be worn. G*d I love Thanksgiving.

Right now, in this moment, everything is so, so good. And I just wanted to share.*

*Here. Because I'm not quite ready to say these things out loud yet. 


Heather said...

I love road trips! In most cases getting there is just as much fun as the destination. But your destination, just wow.

It's been a long time since we've been on the road like that, so I almost wish I knew where you were traveling so I could live vicariously through you. I'll settle for a kick ass update on B2B. In a few days.

Carla said...


Lori Lavender Luz said...

Your happiness is infectious.

Happy trails, my friend!

Michelle G. said...

So so so excited for you! Happiness! Yay!

Danielle said...

Love, love, love! Wishing you the happiest of journeys!

nicoleciomek said...

I love road trips and I am so happy that you and M get to have some travels and relaxation and time together. Hooray!!! Enjoy.

luna said...

you may not be ready to say it out loud yet, but my heart is screaming with joy for you. <3

and don't forget, when you're watching the scan, remember to
B R E A T H E . . . and repeat.