Wednesday, November 24, 2010

And See?

now I am fine.

See, I told you. I guess I am lucky in that I cannot sustain the Sad for longer than 24 or so hours. I just get sick of myself.

Thanks to A. for sharing an evening run. (did you see the autumn sky last night?) Thanks to M. for putting up with my slouchy, self-pitying self and pushing me out the door to run. And for reminding me that there are many, many people around us who love us and who get us and who will be here for us this season - they just aren't members of my immediate family (brother excluded. He tries hard.) And as I mentioned in the comments of the last post, this doesn't make them bad people. And it doesn't make me love them less. What it does mean is that I need to reconfigure my expectations, and not take for granted the overlapping circles of support that M and I both have around us.

And if any of you are in the area, you are more than welcome to stop by tomorrow afternoon to try out some chickpea gravy. I think its gonna rock.

7 comments:

Heather said...

So glad your mood has shifted. I hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving!

I must admit I'm a bit intrigued by the vegan meal. How does one do Thanksgiving without butter? :)

Oh - and my mom is really a great person too. I just wish she understood me a bit more.

Happy Thanksgiving. Again.

Donna said...

Hi, I've followed your blog for awhile now and have wanted to comment so many times, but I just haven't known what to say. I can't imagine what you have gone through and don't want to pretend like I do know. What I do know is that people say really stupid things when they don't know what to say. The odd thing is that no one hurts us more with their insensitive remarks than our immediate family (for me, it's my mother!!). Like you, I've got a sibling though, who tries really hard to understand or at least love me enough to nod and hug me.

Thank you for sharing your heart, you're an amazing woman! I'm glad that today is better for you. And I hope you have a really Happy Thanksgiving.

Lucy said...

I like the idea of a letter to people, telling them about what you're feeling right now and how best to support you.

dana said...

i think i'm in the minority. i'd just rather people not say anything at all. idk why - i know from other experiences that words can be comforting at times. i think i just always feel if someone wants to say something outloud, then i have to somehow justify myself, my feelings, my actions. and i don't like that.

oddly enough, it's my mother (with whom i have a very strange relationship) that knows exactly when to speak and when to say nothing at all - iow, she mostly says nothing; bless her.

thinking of y'all.

xo

CoffeeBlue said...

Hi. Thanks for stopping by my blog. I get The Sad, too. Often. Unexpected. I hate all of our individual aches to bear (thanks for saying it so perfectly). But I'm glad someone invented blogging. I will be following along....

Egg Freeze Expert said...

Glad to hear that you are feeling better M. Just found your blog and it is incredibly inspirational for others going through similar situations. Hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving holiday, take care!

Skerry said...

Thinking about you and M and your girls today.

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