- 11 days after stopping estrogen and provera. Still no deluge. Where is the period to end all periods? Where is this flood of built up (healthy) uterine lining that will wash away all that was yucky and let us start anew? Huh? Where. Are. You?
- After 2 1/2 weeks of some steady gym intake, what is my weight? Exactly the same as when I started. Are my clothes fitting better? Um, no. But do I feel better about myself? Sure. But I would feel far better if I had something, anything tangible to show for my early mornings and sweat. And I do sweat. I am not one of those gals who takes a book along to read while on the treadmill. My thought is, if you can see straight, you're not working hard enough. Insult to injury: I do believe I am still sporting a post-birth body that seems reluctant to leave. As in, were my hips always that wide? My ass that flat?? Well shit.
So, the plan is: I am waiting until 14 fulls days past the last day of provera. If still no flow, we'll do some blood work to check all hormone levels. If it magically appears, we schedule a follow up hysteroscopy to check out the ute., have one more cycle with the help of bcps and then schedule a FET.
I understand that we have nothing but time. That its not a race. That any chances of dodging "advanced maternal age" are now out the window. I just wince at the thought that my body is worse off now than when we started. That the things we had going for us in the beginning cannot be relied upon now. I hate it. I absolutely hate it.
And I cannot believe I am now one of those people obsessed with bodily functions and fluids. (laughing at all poo jokes totally does not count).