Tuesday, December 9, 2008

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On Friday December 5th I gave birth to our beautiful twin girls.

The two hours they were alive with us and in our arms was the most joyful time of our lives.

We are home now, taking things moment by moment. Trying to celebrate their birth and existence. Trying to manage the pain of not having them here.

85 comments:

Anonymous said...

I'm so glad you and M have each other to help you get through this time. I also take comfort knowing that you have a huge community in person and online to be there for you. I've no words that seem to fit. My heart is so sad. I am again in awe that you are so wise and strong to celebrate the time you had with them.

I'm here whenever you're up to a visit. Or whatever else I can possibly do for you.

All my love, ~m~

"Big J" said...

Gabby I'm so so sorry to read this... During this painful time remember the story of Abraham and Sarah (Gen 17:17) and when the time comes just know that the name Isaac will be appropriate for the little warrior you’re going to have..

May peace find your heart and soul during this time of grief!

kylene said...

My heart is breaking for you, please know that I am praying for you and your husband as you deal with this grief. Thank you for your spirit, again, you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Isn't it pretty to think so said...

WHAT?!? Oh my gosh. I can't believe this is happening. I am so sorry. So so sorry. I am here for you. If you want to talk or anything. I am just in shock. Please know my thoughts and prayers are with you. I truly cannot believe this is happening to you.

Julia said...

You and your family are in my prays.

midlife mommy said...

I am so sorry, so sorry.

Merlot said...

I'm so sorry.

loribeth said...

Oh my goodness! I am so very, very sorry. :( I'll be thinking of you in the days ahead.

Ryan's Mommy said...

NO. No, no, no.

I'm so very, very sorry.

Smiling said...

I just sit here saying WHAT and NO NO NO NO over and over again. Oh there is nothing to say but this just can't be happening.

You've traveled such a long journey, and while I celebrate with you those two precious hours, my heart shattered when I read this post. Hold each other tight.

All my love

Sassy said...

M, I am so very sorry. I can't believe it. *hug*

The Quoibler said...

Words can't describe how shocked I am to read your post. But how lovely to know that you spent two hours with your girls, your gifts.

All my love,

Angelique

B MoM said...

Psalm 34:18
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit

I am praying for you in this time of loss. No words are sufficient for a moment such as this.

jodie38 said...

There are no words.....

I'm so very, very sorry.

You're in my thoughts.

Anonymous said...

There are no words to tell you how sorry I am for you.

L

Erin said...

I am so very sorry.
How sad.

Thinking of you, your husband, and your baby angels tonight.

Erin

Lori said...

I can't quite catch my breath. I was so not expecting this, as, I'm sure, you weren't.

Oh, M. I am just sitting here and sending you big love. Big, huge love to comfort your broken hearts.

I am so sorry the world has lost your two girls.

XOXO

Brenda said...

I am so very, very sorry for your loss. You, your husband and your two little ones are in my prayers.

nancy said...

Oh M. I don't even know how to type what I'm feeling for your two right now. My heart is breaking for you. A zillion good thoughts coming your way.

daisy said...

I have no words, just know that you have all my love and compassion. I only wish it was more. Love, Daisy

Summer said...

Oh, no, no, no. I'm so sorry.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry for your loss! My thoughts and prayers are with you, your husband and your little girls.

Leone

Stacie said...

Oh No! No no no no no NO! I am so very, very sorry. My heart is breaking for you and I have tears in my eyes. All I can think to say is that I am sending prayers, strength, and love to you and your husband.

Lollipop Goldstein said...

I am speechless and there are no goods words right now anyway. I am so sorry.

Sarah P. said...

I am so very sorry to hear what happened. As others have said, there are no words. My thoughts are with you.

Anonymous said...

Another reader so sad and sorry.

Skerry said...

Stunned is not a strong enough word to describe what I felt when I read your words. I am devastated for you. I have been happily stalking your pregnancy with your two beautiful girls, rooting for you, hubby and them. You and your hubby are in my thoughts and prayers as you grieve the loss of your babies. I am glad you were able to meet your girls and spend time with them, I'm sure they could feel how loved they were.

hudson6803 said...

I am at a complete loss for words. I'm so very sorry.

Alexa said...

I am so terribly sorry. I know that nothing I can say will make this any more bearable, but please know that I am thinking of you.

niobe said...

I am so, so sorry. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

There are many -- far too many -- of us out there on the internet who have also lost their precious babies and who would offer you whatever love and support we can in these dark days.

Mer said...

The words "I'm sorry" seem insufficient right now, but please know you, M and your precious girls are in my thoughts. I am so very sorry.

Sue said...

I am just heartbroken for you and your husband. I wish there was something more to say besides I'm just so sorry.

alison said...

I'm so, so sorry.

JJ said...

Sending you so many warm thoughts and prayers...i am so very sorry for your loss.

PJ said...

I'm so sorry. How heartbreaking!

Anonymous said...

Heartbreaking. Know you are surrounded. By your girls and so many others who care for you.
Jan

IdleMindOfBeth said...

I'm so, so incredibly sorry for your loss.

Know that you, your husband, and your beautiful girls are in the hearts and minds of many.

calliope said...

oh my heart is just breaking for you. Sending much love.
xo

Amy said...

I am so incredibly sorry for your losses.

I wish you peace as you walk the road of grief. Please know there are many of us here. We will support your through your darkest hours and your brightest days.

Cara said...

M- my heart is breaking for you as well. All my thoughts, prayers and tears will be with you in this dark time.

Lisa said...

I am so so sorry.

Seriously? - Erin said...

Here from L&F. I am so sorry for your loss.

noswimmers said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I know how much this hurts, as I lost twin girls in June. Please know that there are many people out there thinking about you, supporting you...here for anything that you need.
I am sending you warmth and comfort.

Rachie Pachie said...

Glad to hear you got to hold them... so sorry to hear they were in your life for much too short time.

Hugs going out to you & your husband.

Elizabeth said...

I am so, so sorry.

k@lakly said...

Here from L & F. I wish I had words that would help but I know I do not. I'm sorry just seems so empty, but it's all I have. Know that there are many, so many, women here who have traveled this nightmare of a journey and we will all be here to walk with you as you mourn the loss of your beautiful daughters.

Fishsticks and Fireflies said...

I am so very sorry for the loss of your twin girls. I will be thinking of you and your family in the days, weeks, and months to come.

birdsandsquirrels said...

Oh, I am so, so sorry. My heart goes out to you.

Heidi said...

I am so terribly sorry. I am so glad that you were able to have those wonderful two hours with them

All my love

Heather said...

I am so very very sorry.

Carrie said...

I'm so very sorry you have to find a way through this. It just isn't fair.

Somewhat Ordinary said...

My heart is breaking for you. You, your husband and your sweet girls are in my thoughts.

Roni said...

I'm so sorry.

Amanda said...

Oh, my heart breaks for you. I am so sorry.

luna said...

there are no words to express such sorrow. wishing you peace and healing.

In Due Time said...

(((((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))))

There are no words I can say to ease the pain. We're here for you. I'm praying for you and M.

Chi girl! said...

Oh Gabby,I can't begin to tell you how much my heart is aching and how angry I am that you and your sweet M. have to go through such sorrow. As your bodies and souls begin to heal my prayers are that the wonderful memories of your beautiful girls will bring you peace and hope once again.
All my Love is with you both.

Duck said...

oh god, I'm so sorry to hear about their death, my thoughts and prayers are with you.

mybeautifulcrazy said...

there really arn't that many words that do justice to such a sad loss. I'm sorry

FattyPants said...

I'm sorry for the loss of your babies.

mrsmuelly said...

I am so very sorry for the loss of your girls. I know that there are no words that can comfort now. I hope that the following days are gentle for you and your family.

I have gone through two separate losses at 21 weeks, and it's the hardest thing I've ever done. If you ever want to talk I'm here (at my blog).

Michelle said...

I am just so so sorry for your loss!

Niki said...

I am so terribly sorry for the loss of your precious little girls. Finding a balance between the joy and sadness will be tough. Many hugs and much strength to you and your husband!

MrsJoyner said...

Here from L&F...I am so sorry..Sorry doesn't even begin to cover it and I don't have the right words. Just know there are many thinking of and praying for you.

Natalie said...

Here from L&F.... so very sorry to hear of your tragic loss. Our hearts never quite recover from the loss of our children. Much love to you and your family in this very sad time.

Sue said...

Here from LFCA. I am so sorry for your loss. There are no words for your pain. Please know you are not alone.

sharah said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

areyoukiddingme said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. You all are in our prayers.

Newt said...

I'm so very sorry.

Lindsay said...

I wish I had better words. I have these tears falling and I wish there was something I could do. I am so sorry and my thoughts are with you. ((Hugs))

Kara said...

So very sorry to hear about your loss, I will keep you in my thoughts.

Barreness said...

I am so sorry, what an unspeakably heart-breaking time.

My thoughts are with you x

Smiling said...

Still thinking of you, every day.

'Murgdan' said...

I am so sorry for you and your husband.

twondra said...

I found you through L&F at Stirrups. I'm thinking of you. (((HUGS)))

Tammy
www.twondra.blogspot.com

Tash said...

Here from L&F -- I am so incredibly sorry sorry for the loss of your beautiful twins. You're all in my thoughts. Please know that you're not alone on this path forward.

Mo and Will said...

I am so very sorry for your losses. My heart goes out to you.

I've always lurked before, and never written, but now I had to.

Sending you thoughts of strength and peace.

Emily said...

I am so very sorry. I am thinking of you and your angels.

Hugs

lostintranslation said...

I'm so very sorry. Wishing you lots of strength to cope with the loss of your beautiful girls. Hold each other tight.

annacyclopedia said...

I'm so very sorry. Words are just no good right now, but know that you are in my heart and my prayers.

AmyinMotown said...

I stumbled across your blog through my Google alerts, for some reason -- and I am so, so sorry you lost your daughters. What a tragic loss for you and your husband.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry.

JP

Rachel said...

I am so incredibly sorry.

docgrumbles said...

I am so sorry.

Clover said...

Oh God, I'm so horribly behind on blog posts that I'm only now reading this. This is horrible to have to happen to anyone, but to YOU- you have been through so much to even get to have a pregnancy. I'm so so terribly sorry for your loss.

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